Life's Update: A New Beginning ?

So I guess nobody come's here anymore right ? At least I can get some peace here. I came back because I wanted somewhere where I can write all of my feelings out, my opinion out. In silence.


Today's my birthday. I've never felt so much sadness in my life. I feel so alone. Like all of my friends are fake. Nothing special happened today. NOTHING. Not even a single present and celebration. I got like a few birthday greeting and I'm grateful for that, but that was all. I know, its another guy's birthday today and the O levels are closing in but seriously, I feel like I've got nobody else in this world to depend on. I feel like I've got no one whom I can talk everything out, reveal everything. This is why I want a female best friend so bad, but I guess that will never happen. My social life, its like I'm back to where I was during Sec 1. Non-Existent to the human race.Forever alone.


I went home STRAIGHT after school. In my mind, I was expecting something, but I guess those expectations were too high ? Or maybe I was to fast to judge and its gonna be a typical belated celebrations again ? Nevertheless, I feel like giving up on my studies and everything else, but passing O levels is the only ticket out of this school and to start over and get a new life in a new school of higher institution. I guess that's the only thing motivatig me now

P.S If anyone is reading please, inform me on the Cbox ?


KTHXBAI

Life's Update; The End

Although I've said that I'll be coming back once blogger is fixed, but I've decided not to. Life's to busy to manage all of this accounts. So, this will officially be my last post here. I'll be moving on to tumblr.

Still, I've decided to not delete this blog nor its history as this blogs contains a lot of my past written memories which i wish to keep. So, this blog will remain as it is from now. Thanks you readers.

Syafreak.Tumblr.com

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Life's update; Will Be Back, Perhaps ?

Since blogger isn't fixed yet, I'll be using tumblr more often. I won't be using blogger until it's fixed, so for update and such, go to my twitter or tumblr.

http://twitter.com/syafiq41
http://tumblr.com/syafreak

Life's Upfate; Prelims

Finally Blogger Is Fixed. Blogger Has Been Such A Jerk These Days. Well, Whatever.

So Prelims Are Coming After The Break. Fascinating How Time Flies, Next Thing You Know, The GCE N Levels Are Here. What A Bummer. Well, Like I Said, I Have Revising/Studying/Preparing Much For This But There Is Still More To Be Done. I Don't Think I'm All That Ready & Everything But Still, I Have To Give It My Best Shot.

Anyway School This Week Have Been Well, Quite Okay I Should Say. Not Too Slakish, Not To Intensive & Not To Busy. Again Home A Lot Of Undone Assignments. Well, Mr Yong Just Never Stops. Friday Was School's NDP Celebration. It Wasn't That Much Of An Excitement As There Weren't Any Performance Or Anything, Plus We Didn't Even Get To See The Parade. All Due To The H1N1 Shits. Still, It Was Quite Enjoyable.

Moving On, As Some Of You Might Know, I Have Officially Create A Tumblr Account, Cause I Was Pissed Of With Blogger Continues Problems. Do Not Fret, I Won't Be Deleting My Blogger Acc As I'm Still Posting My Weekly Life's Update/Rants Here. Tumblr Is Where I Post Random Stuff According To My Likings.

Well, You Should Certainly Check It Out :D [ Syafreak.tumblr.com ]

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Life's Update; Korean Much ?

Recently I've Been Indulging Myself Into Kpop . All Thanks To The Influence Of Azmeran. He Kept Budging Me To Listen To Them, I Decline At First, But Soon Succumbed To His Annoyance And Decided To Give It Try. To Tell You The Truth, They're Quite Good. Of Course I'm Not The Kind Of Fan That Screams Or Faints. You Should Try Listening If You Haven't. For Starters Try Super Junior, 2PM Or SNSD. You'll Love It.

Anyway This Week Of School Have Been Lackadaisical, Especially Towards The End Of The Week Due To The Absence Of Teachers. Also, Many Classmates And Friends Were Not In School Due To Sickness. Some Were Suspected Of H1N1. Well, The Virus Is Getting Closer & Closer, Have To Take Good Care Of Myself Cause Of The Upcoming Prelims. I Have Been Preparing Well For This With Revisions And Stuff, Hopefully When It Comes In 2 Weeks Time, I Can Do It.

Moving On, Mother Tongue 'N' Level Oral Has Pass. I Screwed It Up, Seriously. My Malay Isn't As Good As My English. Due To This, I Find It Hard To Say The Words From My Mind. I Don't Know Why, Even Though I'm A Malay, I Hate The Language. Most Probably Its Because Of The Teacher. But Well, What's Done Is Done. I Have To Buck Up For Written Paper To Succeed.

2PM, Super Junior & SNSD, FAVED :D

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Rants; Public Toilets

You Know What I Hate About Public Toilets ? Well I'll Tell You What I Hate About It, Its The Flooring. Its Cause Many Of Those Public Toilets Floor Out There Are Always Sticky. It Has Got Nothing To Do With Some Guy Randomly Pouring Glue All Over The Floor. No, Its Because Of Semi-Dried Urine. I Know, Gross. So Its Like, You Go In There To Do A Big Or Small Business & You're Meet With Disgustingly Sticky Floors Every Time You Take A Step. Gross.

Speaking Of Sticky Floors,I Have Story That Relates To That When I Was A Kid.

So I Was Inside A Stall Doing My Businesses. The Small One If You're Interested. & When I Was Done, I Tried To Get Out But I Couldn't. I Forgot If It Was The Turny-Turny Or The Slidey-Slide. All I Know It Was Jammy-Jamed & I Was Well, Stucky-stuck. Yeah I Was Stuck In A Public Toilet Stall, How Is That Even Possible ?

No Other Way Out I Had To Crawl On The Floor & Slide Underneath The Floor. Gross ? I Know. & It Was Not An Easy Task Either As Some Of You May Now, I Was Quite Of A Hefty Kid Back Then. So Picture A Fat Kid, Covered In Sticky Fluids With Semi Urine And Other Stuff That I Don't Want To Know About, Trying To Fit Through This 1 Foot Gaping Hole, Which Sound Perverted All Of A Sudden. So It Was Like Watching A Greased Pig Trying To Fit Through A Kiddy Door. But Yeah, It Was Just, Revolting.The Worst Part Is When One Of My Friends Actually Saw Me Crawling Under It & It Was Really Awkward.

My Childhood Is Filled With Whores. Wait, I Mean Horrors. Not Horses, Horrors.Awkward.

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Life's Update; Homework Invasion

My N Level Oral Is Drawing Near. Its Happening This Monday, How Intense. There Have Been Mixed Feelings But Hopefully I'll Make It Through. So Far, Friends Whom Have Taken It Have Given Different Opinion. Some Say Its Difficult Where As There Is Others Whom Say Its Manageable. They Also Said " It Isn't That Difficult, Its Only Cause You're Nervous That Makes It Difficult". Well, Note To Self; Do Not Get Nervous, At All Cost.

Anyway, School This Week Has Been Somehow Intense. Studying Have Been The First Priority And Cause Of That I've Been Trying My Best Not To Sleep In Class. 'N' Levels Are Coming Soon, So I Can't Afford To Be Lagging Behind. Home Assignments Seems To Piling Up A Lot This Week And I Tend To Not Do Them Until The Weekends Are Here. Long Hours At School Just Tires Me And Due To That, They're Incomplete.

Lastly A Shout Out To These 2 Dudes Out There, Azmeran & Sufie. Happy Belated Birthday Guys ! Knowing Both Of You Wasn't A Mistake. You Guys Are Simple Great. Enjoy Your Celebration & Everything. Good Luck In Your Study & Hey, Pokemon Fans For The Win ! LOL

Yeah, I'm A Pokemon Fan, So What ? :P

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